Earlier I thought I am ready for more, but apparently, I am not. After smacking my face on the floor, it’s time to get back to the difficult and not too ambitious.
For people who think I am talking to myself, I am. But just so you are kept entertained. I wrote for a month, each day something and thought — Nah these are short articles, let's aim for more meaningful, more in-depth articles, but seems like that is a trick my brain played on me. Coz clearly I am not ready for it and I failed at it miserably. So now I am back to writing little each day. Sorry guys, meaningful later.
I am a guilty conscious person, too much sometimes. What happens when I am in a guilt state? Remember that game we used to play — Statue meaning freeze in however state you are in. Exactly like that. The whole world is moving fast and I am paused thinking about that feeling and then thinking about overthinking. Anyway, after quite some time, I realize and let go of that feeling.
No pun intended but these are the guilt that plays on me from time to time. (Ok fine, maybe a little intended)
No exercise guilt — No exercise today, no exercise yesterday. Today? From Tomorrow.
Elder sister guilt — Oh my gowd, this place is so good. I should have brought to younger aroras with me, now they are missing this.
Food guilt — Okay, I ate waaayyyyyy to much today. My way to much is different than your way too mucccchhhh.
Work guilt — I work so much, there is no time for anything else. Oh okay I should sleep now but maybe if I finish this in one sitting, tomorrow will be sunshine. It isn’t.
Sleep guilt — Maybe I could function with 6 hours of sleep? Yup, I was wrong. Now I am feeling guilty.
Privilege guilt — This outfit is so not worth it, should I buy this? I love ittttt but. Why am I hoarding stuff when I could contribute to something better?
Earth guilt — Oh gawsh — global warming is here and I am taking another flight?? So irresponsible. Can I walk or cycle across? I am not going to survive this.
Lockdown Guilt — I am here eating tasty food, playing board games, and people are really suffering. What is my contribution? None.
Writing in the night guilt — I know I am a train wreck at night then why do I postpone writing in the day?
Guilt — Guilt — What should I feel guilty about, I mean?
Day 32 | 365 | Abhi itna he.
