I want to know how to not be all over the place. I know I need to drink more water but I resist. My body is still and in pain but I refuse to do stretches or even go for a walk. Why can’t I get my shit together for once and for all.
Ah the timeless question. Why don’t we do things we know are good for us or we’re supposed to ? There is no one answer because we are all so different. Feeling wrung out is baseline for many of us. Procrastination is often a way of coping with overwhelm. Is that why I postponed finishing this?
Doing things that are good for me, why do they feel like chores and give me discomfort. Why can’t it be the other way round?
I mean —
- Why is it easy to hit the snooze button on the alarm rather than bounding out of bed and going to the gym?
- Why is there such a gap between knowing what we need to do and doing it?
- How come it’s easier to select chocolate cake over an apple?
- To binge on Netflix instead of getting an early night?
- Or, waste valuable time on social media instead of completing an important project?
I mean we try, I try. To break up my tasks or to ask a loved one to hold me accountable. I set an intention to start so I have a map forward. Keeping track of appreciating every small accomplishment. Drank water. Check. Finished writing. Check. Its’a small thing but all big things are the sum of.
Right? I mean I don’t know.
Day 29 | Hmmmm.
